More Days

I’m not a very sentimental person.

But, it’s now 2017. People are excited. They made resolutions. We’re all committed to 365 days worth of new calendariness.

Live each one well, and if not, then try again the next day.

I wanted to have my novella published by now. But it’s going to take a bit longer. To show my earnest commitment for my resolution, I even revamped the site. woot. In my 2017, I look forward to having that released and beginning more journeys! Thank you for reading!

– jeremy

Make the Change

Two days ago I moved to Brooklyn, New York. Not for any reason in particular. For the first time in my life, I made a choice with very few of my traditional intentions layered around it. I’m not here chasing a promise, a career, a lifestyle, a love. I’m just here.

My life has been one goal to the next. There was always quantifiable success and failure. Pass this test. Win this competition. Fail. Graduate from this school. Success. Graduate from another school. Get a job. Work.

But having accomplished that last, I found the rest of my goals muddled. All my past goals hadn’t really been my own. They had been set in place by others and I had followed. But eventually, when people start calling you an “adult,” you decide which things are important to you.

And go.

Cue sustained anxiety.

What matters to me? Who matters to me? Where matters to me?

Ugh. The process of answering these questions was draining and honestly felt like a constant loop of dread. There are trade-offs behind every decision, sacrifices, gains and losses. I got caught in decision traps. This OR that? Here OR there?

I froze. A year and a half went by.

Is it weird that that happens? I binged shows. Read books. Wrote tons of utter garbage. Went out with friends. Met new people. Did well at my job. Bip bap boom. Shit, wasn’t I supposed to figure out what life means to me?

I needed a change in scenery. So I made the change.

No one decides what matters to you. If you’re unhappy, find the reason and determine its solution. Make this time for yourself.

Epiphanies don’t show up unless you ask to meet them.

New year!

Naaaah, way too late for the new year…

and I didn’t even get at least one short story in for January.

But I’m working on my manuscript and big things are coming. I recently completed a revised outline for the story. I’m not on my third draft and lots of changes are coming. They’re exciting too. Can’t wait to show it.

I’ll post each new section here…

Stay tuned!

ABNA Completion!

I’ve finished and now recovered from the Amazon Breakthrough Novel Award (ABNA) contest. The contest ended March 2, but I needed every night since then to catch up on sleep!

My last post was a month ago when the contest first started and it has been an arduous trek.
It was pretty often that I’d wake up, glance at the clock blinking a neon green 3am, wipe the sleep from my face, nudge my sleeping computer awake, tap in my password, and then promptly fall back asleep. Five hours later, I’d be on the bus headed back to work. Thems were long days.
Thankfully, it’s over now, but as grueling as it was, I’m super happy that I pushed myself to produce a submittable (though unlikely winning) manuscript. 
I wrote a first draft of my story for NaNoWriMo. The resulting 65k words were a mishmash of awful words and unruly plot lines. I made a few changes, hacked some excess, and found myself with 3k worth of material. The rest had to go. 
ABNA helped me get the rest of the manuscript’s structure in place. It’s nothing to behold, as there are still many, many areas in need of repair, but it got me back to the 51k area. 
So while it may feel great having that first draft done, keep an open mind about it. Because like a trite character, it may get the cut. 
Throwing out 62k words felt bad. Did I just waste all my time?! Well, yes and no. The first draft left me with a great understanding of my characters, world, and story direction. None of it was right in the first draft, but the correction for draft two was immense, and I’m happy with that. 
Coming soon, I’ll post an excerpt of my manuscript.